Last year, I knew I was to revamp my business and do some things differently. I’d gotten some clear guidance from the still, small voice (although it actually came through loud and clear). The Voice told me the “new” business was to be
called Love Being You. It seemed a little too bold, but it also thrilled me!
I am passionate about the idea of women loving themselves, about the principles and concepts underlying this business. Even as I recognize how imperfect the business
itself is – the website, the structures, etc. – I recognize it is hugely important to me. Love Being You is how I want to live my life. It is how I want to show up in the world. And it is what I want to help other women to experience for themselves.
When I think of lots and lots of smart, sensitive and/or tender-hearted women LOVING being themselves, my heart swells and I get misty-eyed.
But there are days that I’m still lugging around so much shame and disappointment in myself, I think, ‘Who are you kidding? How can you talk about loving yourself when you’re such a mess?’
Today, I had some of those thoughts. Really, who am I to go spouting about loving oneself? But, I heard one of my Voices say, “Listen, girlfriend, you have a choice here. Do you want to wallow or do you want to feel proud of yourself? Do you want to Love Being You? Do you want to feel God LIVING and working through you, to feel on fire for God or do you want to crawl into a little hole?”
“To feel on fire for God? Okay! Cut the crap and get moving.”
So, I asked myself, what would crawling look like today?
Today, for me, crawling looks like being willing to admit that even though I want to be all about ‘Love Being You’ there are days I feel like I’m a piece of crap. And then, having some compassion for myself. And after that, it’s being willing to write about it – to be willing to be vulnerable, to share what there is to share.
And to let that be enough.
This is, I believe, what Brene Brown is writing about in much of her brilliant work, that you might let go of who you think you’re supposed to be and embrace who you are. And recognize that that IS enough.
My hope is that today you find some way to love being you or to feel proud of yourself – even if it’s in a small way, even if it’s crawling, because crawling is all you can do today.