Would you take a moment and do something that might seem a little weird? Say to yourself “I LOVE being me!” Do you experience a moment of joy?
I know I do! That’s part of why I’m so enthusiastic about Love Being You! Whenever I say it to myself, I smile! I imagine Love Being You! being an encouraging command from my angels or guidance! It’s a great reminder often throughout the day!
I want to encourage smart, professional women – YOU – to love being who you are. To get feisty and proud of yourself – honoring the gifts you’ve been given. woo hoo!
And I use the word ‘feisty’ because that’s how I wanted and needed to be before I could really love being me. And I really wanted to live life loving being me. I’d lived too long feeling bad about myself and it was killing me mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I simply couldn’t live that way any more. I didn’t believe I was meant to.
When I was a very little girl, I was full of life and enthusiasm. As I grew up, many things happened – some I’m keenly aware of, others have remained veiled to my awareness – that not only dimmed my light, love, and enthusiasm, but caused me to come to despise myself. On the outside, I looked pretty good: bright, amusing, well-educated, well-mannered. I even did a fair job of looking well-adjusted (HA!).
But, oh, inside was a different story! I was constantly trying to gain the respect of others, but most of all, trying – and failing – to gain my own respect. Being clear that a bright, amusing, well-educated woman SHOULD be able to live a better life, I did the only thing I could think of…
I became a junkie
I never felt good enough and I couldn’t get enough self-improvement – gobbling up tons of self-help books, programs, audios, you name it! I found a lot of great tools, but I still wasn’t happy, so I must need some other fix, something that would give me what I wanted! Little did I know that my vicious inner taskmaster was leading me in the wrong direction. I would NEVER be perfect enough for ‘him’ and I needed to go a different route.
As that realization hit, and I opened my eyes to how all my work, study, experiences and FAITH were all part of my particular ‘masterpiece’ I remembered myself as joyous and bright and sparkly – and I began to live my life that way! When my loving (and humorous) guidance team COMMANDED me to “Love Being You!” , a whole new chapter of my life opened up and now I get to share that with you!
Why Love Being You?
Mostly, because that is what I so desperately yearned for…that may have been my deepest longing…to love being me. If I loved being me, my life would be incredibly different! My vicious gremlin wouldn’t be in charge, for one. I would feel a joy and freedom. For me, I would feel that I was being a clean, clear, bright mirror of the Divine.
When I allow myself to FEEL that, well, it’s just the most amazing feeling!
When I envision a world of bright, gifted women loving themselves and lighting up the world, what could be better than that??
Throughout my life I’ve loved learning – especially about spirituality, personal & spiritual development, healing, and success (in its many forms!). I’ve pursued (and received) advanced degrees in counseling, theology, and spiritual leadership.
I now live in Sacramento, California with my wonderful hubby and two very furry feline friends, Isabeyla (Bellisima Bella) and Phoebe.
(The girls, photos courtesy of my amazing photographer friend, Hope Harris)
About the name…
A lot of people are curious about my name, Kamala. It isn’t my birth name, but a name I was given by a spiritual teacher in 1999. I immediately loved it! It had a lilt to it that made me feel like I was about to dance, which my birth name NEVER did!
Not only that, but the meaning I had of the name was “complete” or “full.” Later I was told it could also be interpreted as Eve, the complete woman. How cool is that?
In 2008, I decided that I wanted to live the rest of my life being called by a name I LOVED, so I decided to take a leap and change my name legally to Kamala Murphey.